Times are tough for everyone but working retail pharmacy trying to raise a 3 year old and make my urban farm life more then a distant dream is really hard.
I've had my power shut off, struggle to pay rent, and work my tail off but i have nothing to show for it. Well I have a beautiful daughter, a beautiful house and a up and coming farm landscape but life seems to be trudging along slowly not improving and becoming increasingly harder.
I get my heart set on something and i work myself sick trying to make it happen and when it doesn't i get depressed and frustrated.
Lately i haven't wanted to get out of bed in the morning, lay around watching tragedy on TV, and work my 40 hours at my "real" job.. it feels like a chore just to trudge outside in the heat to pull weeds and start my fall planting...
I want to get myself out of this funk, its a nasty feeling being down, normally im so up beat and happy ARGH!
I am looking forward to this weekend Green After Dark event at the Odessa farmers market on Gunn Highway in Tampa. Live music, a aquaponics talk, and lots of awesome green vendors for everything from produce to soaps!
Thanks for listening readers! ; )